For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

ok i'm so over being depressed. i'm going to try my hardest to be happy and i wont let my asshole of a father get to me.

my Aunt has agreed to take me out driving so i can get my license soon! she's taking me out driving after she finishes work everyday during the week and during the day on weekends. so i can get my experience up.
i'm not that bad of a driver but everyone else seems to think i am because i'm so damn clumsy. 

and if i get my license i can get a heaps better job so i can pay for my trip to Canada next year!

i went back to hospital yesterday and after 4 hours of waiting i saw a doctor! i had blood tests done, x-rays and an ECG done. all tests came back normal, i'm apparently healthy as can be but it doesn't explain the pain. all well i'm glad i'm out of there the person i had in the next bed was so fucking annoying i wish i could have strangled her! 

so i was worried about nothing and i don't think i've ever had a total clean bill of health before.

thank you to the people who were worried about me. *HUGS*

i haven't been feeling well for about a week now and last night it got really bad so i went to a doctor and they said i should wait in emergency to see a doctor to find out what i have. so i went with my aunt to emergency, when i got there i saw a triage nurse to get my bp and temp done and for the next 6 hours no one said a word to me i sat out in the waiting room in pain for six hours until i gave up and went home at 3 am! my dad said he'll take me back today to make sure i'm fine. i might have appendicitis which can kill you if you leave it too late and it bursts, and they left me waiting for 6 fucking hours. i hate australian hospitals and doctors.

ok so i was talking to my aunty on msn today and she mentioned an idea i had last year to go to Canada for a few weeks. she said she was looking at going in October right around our birthdays (her's is the 7th and mine is the 12th) for about 2 weeks then going to Las Vegas for a week. i've always wanted to go to Canada, i don't know why i've just always thought it to be somewhere where i'd want to live. 
we haven't decided where in Canada we are going yet but we should in a few weeks. 
any ideas about where we should go?

i bought a nintendo wii last night and guitar hero 3. 

i didn't go to bed until 2 am because i was playing it all night. 

my left hand is so sore from playing the fret buttons on the guitar

Today i recieved a House MD photo that was autographed by the cast and it's authentic unlike the buffy one my sister has. i only got it for $41 and i was expecting to pay at leats $100.

i said i would look after my little sister Kobi last night when my dad went to some meeting. 
words cannot decribe how lazy this child is. she wanted me to pick her up every five minutes, she's nearly six years old and cannot dress herself, sleep in her own bed, bathe herself, feed herself and she can't/won't brush her damn hair. 
she only gets away with it because she's daddy's little princess, hey i was doing all of that by the time i was 3 and a half, why the hell is she any different? 
so last night when i made her her bath, she wouldn't get in until the water was ice cold and wanted more hot water in it(which i didn't do mostly because she needs to be told NO occasionally), she wanted chocolate for dinner so my dad let her before he left, she didn't go to bed until just before i did (at 10:15) and i get in trouble for giving her an ice cold bath and giving her chocolate for dinner.  
my dad wouldn't be able to cope if i left home. i have to do everything and when i nearly tear two of my quadricep muscles and cannot stand without being in pain i still have to clean the fucking house and make him dinner!

happy birthday smurphy487

Happy Birthday



 causticchick

Jess just came home from her theatre class. she's beyond angry

my dad recieved a letter today from her school letting him know she dropped out of maths. he's beyond pissed off

there's going to be an arguement a big one, one to mark the pages in history. like a nuclear war

she told me if there's a fight, she's moving out to go live with my aunt.

i have a guardian complex, i need to protect the people i care about and this is one situation where i can do nothing.

i'm on the sidelines, i need to help someone but if i do the other will accuse me of betraying them. 

i think this is what the forboding sense of dread i had a month a ago was about. somehow i knew this is what was going to happen but i can't stop it.

when she leaves i'll be the next target, the next one to crack, the next one to leave and i wont come back.

i'm worried

i like knowing what to do in situations, i'm usually clear headed and i have control.

i'm scared

she's my little sister, i'm supposed to protect her.

i don't want to be involved but i'm being dragged in by every participant.

  
Happy birthday

 

jremme

today was my first day at mc donalds and i served a grand total of 12 people in 3 hours!
i now have 4 days worth of training left. 

my dad has started calling me McAmy, grrrrrrrr! wish he'd dissappear.

the party for my best friend is tonight (ok so 1 1/2 half hours way to be exact) and i feel weird like i want to go but i wouldn't be able to stomach it. my new years resolution was to become more open to my friends, it's really weird when i'm 2 completely different people with my family and friends. my sister is going too so i have to mix both people into one. 

we're going to this restaurant and i don't know what to wear! i live in t-shirts and jeans or my black pants. i might have 1 button down top but i don't want to wear it because it makes me look like i'm trying too hard. i hate clothes shopping i know it's taboo when your female but i do i hate shopping of any kind except for music. but in the last 3 weeks i have attained 4 new t-shirts and my black pants.
this is why i hate going out. it also explains my current lack of boyfriend and social calander.

i so don't want to go and yes i do know that i'm acting like a 4 year old. i have to go i've known my best friend for 14 years we're practically sisters. it's also weird that she's going out with my ex and they had a thing while i was going out with him. 

i wish i could take my ipod, it just makes life more bareable.

on the bright side the guy i kinda like might be there. i think my friends know i like him because if we start talking we just go off into our own little world and ignore everyone else. and the thing i like about him the most is he pays attention to me, when i talk he doesn't try to interupt me or walk off. this is starting to sound like i'm in love with him. hey it's in the air valentines day is 5 days away.  the thing is i don't know if he has a girlfriend or even likes me in that way?

i wish i had a mother figure who i could talk to about this. (thuds head on desk)

well no one really taught me how to cook, i just kinda picked it up since my dad hates cooking and my mum doesn't live with us. it just seemed like i had to do it or i'd forever be living off chinese takeout or pizza

3 and a half hours ago a storm hit (worst in quite a while, but the rain would have filled up the dams!) and when it hit my bedroom flooded. my window was closed but the water came in anyway. so now my room is empty and the carpet is soaked along with every towel in the house. seriously i used every towel! and my spare sheets for my bed and some clothes to stop the water coming in. 
ok imagine a water cannon spraying just at a single window that's what it was like. only my room was affected it so totally sucks. 
i had to move my bed out of my room and basically everything except my tv and my computer. i think i'll sleep under my desk tonight cos i'm so not sleeping on the couch! 

outside though we had about 1 and a half inches of water on the ground, my backyard looks like a swamp.

and the worst thing is we still have more rain to come tonight and tomorrow!

i think i should revise my scuba training and water proof my computer if my room is to flood again 

ok so we all know that i've got a job with mc donalds, but i don't know when i start since they haven't informed me of my first shift. so i decided tonight to check my login for mc donalds online and i found out that i'm working on the 11th to the 15th, 9 am to 12pm. 
it's all good but on the friday it's my best friends' boyfriend's(my ex, we're still friends! i hope) birthday party and it starts at 1:30 pm. the thing is i don't have my drivers licence yet (don't get me started on it!) and the party is on the northside of town, so being from the southside it takes well over an hour to get there by bus.
i don't know what to do i could ask for a  lift from one of my friends but i don't want to seem desperate since they know my current problems at home. i think i should talk to my best friend at her party on the 9th. 

Kobi had her first day at school today and for the first two weeks she only has half days, that sucks because when i was in kindergarten (oh so long ago) we had to endure the full day. she has told everyone she's seen today about school and how it's so great. 

grrrr.... school sucked big time but i was still good at it.  it was just the teachers i hated.

oh i watched my first superbowl today, it was great and the giants won! yay! 

happy birthday flybutterfly24